o 1 2 3 4 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12 --Welcome to my Head-- by: Kody Where to start? I just don't know, Theres so much for me to show. Many years of pain Confusion, loss, emptiness, and shame… But I guess im the only one to blame Them again, without these times, We wouldn't be the people we are today. But all those times, and these cheap rhymes Are all I have, in which to pay To wash all of my sins away. Unique morals and stories untold From an imperfect soul In a desperate attempt to be… Remembered for all that he… Was, and wants to be. These are merely words to the world From within its grasp, a single soul. So open your mind, and look into mine I hope you find what you wanted to find… WELCOME TO MY HEAD --He holds you- by: Kody I cant stand to see Him in my place It kills me That smile on your face I want to take you And call you mine again What is it exactly That makes you want him? I remember I was happy once… With you by my side… Now you act like you can hide Everything you felt inside The words you told me, were they ALL lies? So much pain, for a single gain Why must you play this fucking game? You've left a hole that will never heal If only I, could let you feel Exactly what you've done… But im crying now, so fuck it… im done --Cant feel- by: Kody I don't understand Why I cant feel, My heart is numb, My body, weak. I wish I could just go to sleep, and never wake for when I do, my life is hell, and I cant feel you --But shes not mine- by: Kody Ive found something that stops the pain When shes near, life seems perfect …but shes not mine… Shes held by another What will happen? what should I do? When shes gone, I fall again.. Into my hell, my head, one in the same But for WHAT?? So I can attempt to forever run from the hurt I have felt once and again, forever In fear of the feeling called love? Its slowly taking me apart, the Echoing sound of pain, and lies Pounding on my head until I want to break… …She makes it all go away… …She's within my grasp… …But…she's not mine… --Simple Feelings- by: Kody Free falling into darkness, Fighting for that ultimate feeling. I try, but fail to find that Final moment of eternal happiness that is forever slipping through my fingers Further down the spiral, Falling far from where I want to be But now, I find something new, Simple feeling for a single soul… But with head spinning and heart racing, I cant help but fear what simple feelings can turn into… --Questions- by: Kody when will it end? This meaningless passing of time Keeps eating away at my mind. When will I leave? This life is so depressing And yet theres still this one thing… But why do I feel this way? I wish I could run away And leave this sad place today But why do feel this is wrong? Could there be something Left for me to do? But what the fuck? I feel like im falling apart And soon ill have nothing left in my heart What have I done to myself? What have I become? And will I ever find out why I feel so dead inside? Well, I don't know why, But all I CAN do, Is live, love, and die. --The Heartless- by: Kody The best at lying Forever dying Never crying Always killing They live a life of lies To get inside your mind And make you them as this thing That you must have to feel whole You wont know, Until you've died That they cannot love, Or even feel, love inside… For they are nothing more than… The heartless When your in pain, The'll take it away But just leave emptiness inside Then they drop you, run and hide Leaving nothingness inside Because of them, I have died So this is just a warning To anyone whos urning For someone just to hold them. Just be sure you know them Before you fall for them For there the best at lying And forever dying They don't think once, Of who there killing For they don't feel… Anything…..ever… --Tired- by: Kody I lay in bed, wide awake Fear that someone is going to take You away and ill never see, Your pretty face next to me I want to sleep I want to dream But for tonight, ill just ScReeeaaMM!!!! My mind wont stop To me it seems, That everything important Is stolen from me I wish my brain Could just shut down… IM GOING INSANE! Lying in bed, beating my head Against the wall, maybe ill fall Into a deep sleep, and never wake… Thatd be great! …but now im bleeding, and the wall is stained I wish I were dreaming.. DAMN SHEEP! YOUR ALL FIRED! FucK!….Im tired --Happy?- by: Kody Its Christmas time! YAY! Presents!…. Um… was there some other point to this time of year? I don't know, and don't care, Cuz this year, all I want, is a little cheer I've been so miserable, all this year Stupid feeling, pointless tears,,, I wonder if maybe… I could be happy? Even a day, I'd feel lucky My heart is broken, can it heal? I wonder if someday, ill be able to feel Anything but sadness, this coming year? -Happy? Not yet, but maybe someday…- I hope to find someone who'll help me awake From this second fall into darkness, fake This worlds so old, it feels unreal I want a new world, with new faces A new home, and new places.. -Happy? …Not yet, but hopefully soon…- 14 |