by: Kari

A Forbidden Love

Like a witch, you cast a spell on me.
A spell of love and true ecstasy.
Like a demon, you ripped out my heart and possesed my soul.
Your love is all I need to fill this empty hole.
This cavity in my heart that bleeds eternal sorrow.
Why it is this way, the answer I do not know.
I'm dying in your arms tonight.
As we come to an end on our unknown flight.
A flight through truth, that endlessly seperates us from ourselves and all reality.
Here I stand, alone at the gates, with a supierior questioning me.
In a distant storm of fire I see mortals, human and non.
The, once star-filled, sky seem to have gone.
Why they are so happy, this I can not tell.
For this majestic place I'm in surely must be hell.

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New things old
are new again
My only hope
is razor thin
I look around
What do I see?
All of the things
that confuse me.
I would've helped you
On your way
A better life
For you someday
I'd serve my heart up
on a plate
I'd rather hide
and not tempt fate
You were the girl
I always knew
I wanted more
What should I do?
Would I fall in love again?
Just when I thought
Love was a sin.
You changed my mind
A better thought
A love to give
Is all I've got
Let me in.
Just a chance
Is all I need.
I ask of you.
Would you please?

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evil eyes filled with dark
confuse my mind and kiss my heart
foggy mind filled with hate reacts with voilence and relys on fate
voilent soul filled with immortality
just like a cavity in the sky it has no reality
gentle hands drenched in blood
a knife through the heart flowed like a flood
ocean blue eyes filled with regret
wish for forgiveness for such a supid bet
trembling knees drop to the ground
a stone striaght face turns quickly to a frown
sunny sky filled with a storm
tears from god fall like rain and wash away the harm
the tears filled with love
take away the pain, then leaves like a criminal without a name
a smile as big as the sun sets upon his face
then as he awakes he finds a message put precisly in its place

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as he stands at the door,
my heart is pounding,
he kicks it to the floor,
dear lord he found me,
he walks to me,
hiding the bat in his hand,
i slowly rise and stand,
he thinks i dont know,
but i do,
all i wonder now is what ill be when hes through,
quickly i run to the bathroom and lock myself in,
but he swings with the bat and hits the door again and again,
within a few minutes hes knocked it off its hinges,
he looks at me and all i feel is cringes,
just then i remembered where i put a pen, i took it and stabbed him in his right leg,
he falls to the floor and hits his head.
i hit him now with the bat and in a few minutes hes dead just like that,
i murdered him without the intent to do so,
i committed man slaughter,
he deserved it though,
now as the police take me away a neighbor near by rock and sways,
although killing him was out of self defense i fear this is the end of my days..

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My mind was spinning, and soul on fire,
as I fell from the twisting spire.
My heart has been filled with fright,
since I first stepped off into my flight.
I look to the east, and here comes the day,
as I hit the ground I must obey.
My life is ending in such a trendy way.
And now as the dawn gets filled with a scream,
I wake to find it was just a dream.
I sit up and get out of bed,
I get to my feet and rub my aching head.
I look in the mirror and to my suprise,
I see myself infront of a podeom and an audience with a millon eyes.
And then I began to recite...
"I just wanna live. By Kari Gilmore.
I wanna live in a world where every human being is color blind,
I wanna live in a nation that isnt run by hypocrits,
I wanna live in a state that chooses a representative by quality and not popularity,
I wanna live in a city where my voice is heard and respected as a person not just a child,
I wanna go to a school where young adults are not treated as second graders with assembly lines, assigned seats and fear to speak their minds,
I wanna live with a family that loves and cares for me,
I wanna live with respect,
I wanna live in a perfect world,
I just wanna live..."
Then as i close my eyes, to take a breath.
I awake at my home in my own bed.
As I listen to soft words whispered in my mind.
I see the future I am not yet ready to find....

god this must be a sin,
there i go thinkin of him again,
thinkin sum day this has gotta end.
cuz i cant go on, cant keep pretendin.
cant keep sayin sure its okay for us to be friends.
[chorus]
cuz i cant believe that you lie to me.
close your eyes, who is it that you see?
cuz i cant believe why you would play me.
callin me things like sweetie and bay bee.
but all i ask is for the truth..please.
no longer will it be me that you deceive.
see, i got me this hot hair do.
thinkin i could seduce you.
got me a whole new look, the sexy kind u know?
but i guess in your words that would be "ho".
but its ok for you treat me this way.
cuz you and i both know, you ill never hate.
right?
[[chorus]]
WRONG!! bitch im sick of your shit.
sick of you always throwing all your damn fits.
forget about my lips.. kiss my ass.
cuz today is the day i forgot about you, FAG!
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